My life is one big lie.
Im not a girl and everyone has to pretend with me
I try to get girls who lie about not being girls, and boys who lie about not being boys, to lie with me
That's ultimately what im attracted to - liars. The more committed the better
I am a holder of light
Ancient truth
From back when magic was veined as clear as precious ore through everything
When body was magic, when soul was magic
And truth wasn't a weapon wielded
But an emergence ceaselessly uncovered
Unchanging, ever-new, like a rapid in a river’s flow
I get off on deception
My power manifests
In how far i can push the world to contort to my fantasies and whims
A person can swing between Two Eternal Poles
Ok
A man can identify himself into womanhood
Ok
Can grow his chest can pitch his voice can fuck this way can move that way
Ok ok ok ok ok
I am not okay
Actually
I am brilliant
Like the earliest fingers of sunrise as they grip the horizon and vault Light over Mountaintop to make Day
I am confluence
Like brackish water
Connective sinew like migratory birds
Like subterranean mushroom webs weaving woodland phone lines through roots as deep as the sky is high
I was once one thing
And am now another
And, since the beginning, I’ve been Change
And since the beginning, She’s been change
And always, I am Her
I am degeneracy
I am a dream realized
I am a lie too big to release
I am the roiling urge of this universe to grow
I am pain, and sickness
I am healing, and return
I am everything you see
I am everything you cant
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I am whispers of a forgotten thing
molded into life so achingly alive...
I am all of that promise
I am all of that pain
I am the floodplain where they crash and stitch
to course out into the ocean
as one