change like it's love
there is no permanence easy to lean into
i talked to my best friend yesterday
about how it feels to love
to trust
that it's like leaning back into a body you know is going to be there
into a pair of arms you know will catch you
but there is no knowledge permanent in its knowing
everything in this world is change
even
the surest pair of arms
belongs to a body
which belongs to a soul
that will one day, transition beyond
and the one thing that *is* Permanent
is also Unknowable
and Her name can't even be pronounced
and She has not given us an easy permanence
She has only given us Change
a Change so constant it's almost Permanent
but so radical it's impossible to name
so constant in its changing it can even change to constance
but before you can esconce it it's already begun to fade
She has not given us an easy permanence
this eternally overturning God
She has only given us Change
we can't be sure of anything except that anything can happen
we can trust that our Creator
will make Herself known in such a way
we can be sure that if we sit, and wait, the unimaginable will happen
we can watch oceans turn to deserts
the meek balloon to mighty
the impossible flip inevitable
the sunset surrender to the stars
time will keep on going
until it doesn't
but what it brings
we can only learn through
the submission
that we will never fully know
which is
quite an uneasy permanence
that She has given us to lean into
and yet in Her own way
this is love
and this is trust
and these are arms
the cycles of the sun
the rotations of the earth
things that do, change but just, so slowly
that it's imperceptible over the span of a life
so to us, to Her children it appears they never change at all
and we can count on them
decorate them
build a calendar
or a day
a base, unstable in the long arc, but from which, in our short lives, we could learn to grow
into the impermanence
that is the constant
She has given us
into the change
which we lean back into
like it's love